Live to eat, Eat to live

Susan. 18 years old. From Malaysia, currently living in Perth, Australia. A recovering anorexic mending her relationship with herself and food.
*I am not pro-anything... well, I guess I'm pro-recovery! Feel free to drop something in my ask... I'll try to answer back!



I hate to admit it but yes I can think clearer when I’ve properly nourished myself.

I love to admit it

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i want a shirt that says “eat or die” because at first it sounds rebellious but its just a reminder

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awkward in person, funny and social on the internet

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from girl rising …to consider on international women’s day (and every day thereafter)

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"And it’s hard to hate someone once you understand them."
Lucy Christopher, Stolen: A Letter to My Captor (via textposter)

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"If nothing else, one day you can look someone straight in the eyes and say “But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today.”"
Iain S. Thomas, I Wrote This For You   (via januaryist)

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"Everybody talks about wanting to change things and help and fix, but ultimately all you can do is fix yourself. And that’s a lot. Because if you can fix yourself, it has a ripple effect."
Rob Reiner (via runningvegan)

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My new life at uni…

Whew, the last few days have been hectic (but the good and productive kind) what with all the new stuff I’m learning at uni and all the new people I’m meeting. It’s so exciting, though! It makes me realize that there’s so much more outside a life with an eating disorder… and so, I’m gonna use all of this as motivation to get me eating more and getting healthier.

I know I’ve said this all before, but I’m doing this mostly for my own sake… it’s so I can keep reminding myself that if I don’t recover, none of this will even matter. I can’t keep keeping recovery on the backburner anymore.

I just read about the female COO of Facebook in a Cosmo mag earlier, and the advice she gave really struck a chord with me. She said, “Identify what you fear doing, and just DO IT.” (I’ve paraphrased it slightly, but that’s the main message)

When I eat every meal now, I have to learn to me more conscious about my thought processes regarding portion sizes… so I can slowly let go of the ‘rules’ ED has that currently governs my thoughts while eating. Sometimes I fail, and sometimes I make progress; all I need to do is to make sure that I take more steps forward than back.


Keep in mind:

eating will not hurt you

eating will not make you gain an unnecessary amount of weight

eating will keep you alive and give you energy to live

eating will get easier as time passes

eating is necessary

eating is life


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Two hardest things about recovery: 

  • Realising you’re worth recovery 
  • Saying goodbye to the sick you. 

It’s so tempting to go back to the sick you sometimes, even when you realise you’re worth recovery. Just when you start really recovering and making huge progress, you seem to secretly want to go back to how you were. It is very important that you ignore that and keep going anyway. Recovery is hard, but worth it.

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